First the most hurtful thing is the realization, after you leave, that you’re not as good of a person that you thought you were. The JW’s teach you to judge others. “That person has been attending all the meetings so I can’t go to his house for lunch”. “That person hasn’t been out in field service very much so I can’t invite him over”. The list of disqualifications never ends. All the while you picture yourself as being “Christ-like.”
But if you look at Christ he ate with the sinners and tax collectors. Take Mary Magdalene for example. A women that had demons cast out of her. A woman who was an adulteress or prostitute. Not only did Jesus associate with her but she washed his feet with her hair. Imagine the *-storm if you were an Elder today and people found out you were associating with a prostitute who had demon troubles, and she was washing your feet with her tears and hair. That example is a little over the top, but you get the idea.
The second most hurtful thing is that if you had realized this sooner you would have more than 10 stupid posts a day on JWN.
twinkletoes - have you posted your story somewhere?